Christmas? Where did you go?

This year it seemed like Christmas came and went...fast. Usually this time of year feels like time stands still and I get to enjoy every second. Not this year. I honestly felt that Christmas was just another day. I also had mixed emotions about it all...on one side, i felt that i truly grasped the meaning of Christmas and how it was not about the hustle and bustle... but about Jesus and his amazing gift to us. I would become quite emotional when i would here songs like O Holy Night and others that are just so beautiful to listen to because of the powerful message they have. Then there's the other part of me that wanted Christmas to be all that it's supposed to be, and what that was supposed to look like...i was not sure, and so i felt disappointed. I don't know if it was the fact that we were not in Alberta, or maybe b.c Christmas was not like it usually was in past years, or maybe b.c we couldn't make it to a candle light service. I couldn't and still can't explain why I was sad. Maybe it's the hormones. I love my family so much and it was nice to spend some time with them, so at least we had a nice hang out time together that just so happened to include some gift giving.