T-4 days

We leave soon. We are off to Alberta for 3 months. I was extremely excited and overjoyed to be going back, but now i kind of have mixed feelings about it. I have met so many new people and it feels really good that people want to hang out. Now that the weather is getting nice, I feel like there is so much to do in Winnipeg. I even have a dear friend that is getting married and i will miss all of her bridal showers. Oh well, the god things, is that i will be back and i can re-kindle those friendships once again when i return in August!
Don't get me wrong, i am still excited to go to Edmonton. I am excited to hang out with my niece and other family members, I am excited to see all my girls and some guys too :)...i am also excited to shop! It will be nice to be back.
All that's left is to pack....oh boy.

Gag Reflex

*****Warning! This post is about puke******

So lately i've been finding little puke spots all over our house. And yesterday alone Rocco puked 3 times! He has been sick lately and i think the phlegm in the back of his throat makes him gag and then makes him throw up. I had just finished feeding him when something made him gag and he threw up his ENTIRE meal!!! I have learned that my son has a very strong gag reflex and it is starting to get quite annoying. Another thing that is making him puke, is him finding things to put in his mouth that shouldn't be in his mouth. Like today, he found a crumpled up peice of paper and when Peter was trying to get it out od his mouth, the paper went down his throat and then PUKE EVERYWHERE!!! Ok, the peice of paper was totally my fault. I had left it in a place where i knew Rocco could reach it, i just thought i would put it in the garbage later. I really need to just stay on top of things and make sure the house is clean and free of small things Rocco can put in him mouth, b.c now Peter has to bring out the spot bot and clean up the pukey mess. I just hope the stains come out of his clothes!

6:20am

I now officially hate 6:20 am. It seems likes my sons body clock just likes to wake him up at that EXACT time every day...well except for those days where he likes to wake up at 4 am. I've tried to put him to bed later, and i've also tried to put him to bed earlier...nothing seems to work and it is driving me crazy. I guess the only good thing is, is that Peter gets up with me and we hang out as a little family in our bed till Rocco gets crazy and want to play with everything, so then we move to the living room and so begins our day. I know he's still tired b.c he rubs his eyes uncontrolably sometimes, and yet nothing seems to work. I just worry about when we're in Edmonton and he'll be in the same room as Peter and I and for sure we can't just ignore him till we feel like getting up. I also worry about those times where he wakes up at 4am, and usually Peter and I just let him cry it out till he falls back asleep, and i'll get paranoid and i won't want to wake up our gracious hosts. Yikes! It's not even 8am and i already feel like i've done so much....going to be a long day. Thanks God it's beautiful outside!

It's been a while since my last post and nothing too exciting has happened. Peter is almost done his exams! I cannot tell you how excited I am to not watch him study and to not hear him talk about all things school....I love you honey...but i need a break! And we will have a LONG 3 month break away from Winnipeg and in Alberta. I was really excited at first to go and be back to something more familiar...but now that I've been getting know people, like really getting to know people to the point where they want to hang out, i kind of want to stay to hang out! But when I think about it, i need to go back to Edmonton to see people that I love very much and who i miss! I have all of August and the rest of my time in Winnipeg to hang out with new friends! Now i have to think about all the things i need to bring with me...but i guess if i do forget something i can just buy it...
Anyways....this is not very exciting at all...more to come later!

Home sweet home?

I miss my old house. I miss the awesome gas stove, the large picture window in the living room and even the creaky wood floors upstairs. But I think the thing I miss the most is my own space. I think now more than ever i've realized that i need to have physical space...and silence. I think I was so used to having this before, and now that I don't have much of it....i'm craving it! I crave my alone time more then ever now ( more like Peter, Ana and Rocco time). I guess before, I had control over what was making noise in my house and now that I live with other people, that's not going to happen. Another thing that I miss is being messy. In my own home, I could make all the mess I wanted and just keep it that way till whenever I felt the urge to clean it up. Now that I live in someone elses house, I have to make sure that things are kept clean and tidy. Don't get me wrong...this is a very good thing, but there are moments where I just don't feel like keeping things neat and clean and I just want to veg out and not care. But I have to care b.c it's not my kitchen, those are not my plates, it's not my living room. I feel like i'm in permanant visitors mode, you know....where you are thankful people are letting you stay with them, but your kind of on pins and needles when it comes to their stuff and you are always making sure it's the way they like it because you want to respect their things and you want them to want you back :)
Really though, time has gone by really fast, and before I know it, Peter will be a nurse and we will be in our own little home, probably renting something and we will think back to this time where we lived with people and smile and think " I can't beleive we did that!"

He is Risen!

I don't think I have EVER thought about the true meaning of Easter this much before. I always just found it as an excuse to eat chocolate and hang out with family. But this year, I think i truly understood what it meant for God to give his only son to die for me and you. Maybe it's b.c I have a son and when I think about it, i don't know if i could give such a sacrifice. I love my son more than anything and if someone were to ask me to 'sacrifice' him, the answer would be no. My entire faith revolves around this one event. Without Jesus dying on the cross, there would be no reason why I live the way I live. His teachings would be meaningless without Jesus dying on the cross and rising again.
I have a hard time knowing that people still reject him. That people feel that they are better off without Jesus because they feel that they don't want to be "held back" or even accountable to anybody but themselves. Being a following of Christ is not about being closed minded, but about knowing what is right and wrong and living a life that is full of joy and love. It is about loving everybody, faults and all. It is about so much more than people think.
Today represents Christ rising from the grave so that we all may live. I am so thankful.

I love looking at people's photos. Especially when someone goes traveling. But most of the time, every time I sit down to enjoy these types of photos, my heart tends to hurt just a little. Usually this feeling goes away and life goes on, but sometimes it takes me a little while to get over it. It's the feeling of "I want to go there too, but I can't, and I may never be able to" feeling. I mostly get this feeling when I see pictures of Europe. It looks absolutely incredible there. The architecture, history and scenery are all things that make me want to go, and one day I want them to be my pictures I share with people.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change anything about my life now...(well maybe I would live in my own place :) I've said it many times in my blog that I love my life and I mean that. Everything that i've done so far has been a decision I have made and have not regretted. Getting married, having a baby, moving back to Winnipeg, are all things that have blessed my life beyond words. I guess there are just small moments of time where I want just a little bit more. One day I'll get to take that long flight over there and get to enjoy it myself firsthand. Till then, i'll just continue taking photos of the people and things I love here! :)