Worst Hair Cut EVER

So today I got a haircut. I went in there this morning so excited to get my haircut from a place that i've loved going for about 2 years. I was excited to get something a little shorter since, as most of you know...the front part of my hair is straight and the back curly (thanks to my dear son Rocco) So the girl that used to cut my hair no longer works there, so they put me with her re placement. I told her what I wanted, how short i wanted it and we went for it. As soon as she took the scissors to my head I know something was wrong, but i thought "nope, i know she knows whats she's dong"...I had never had a bad haircut there ever, so i was confident in her skills. When she moved to the sides of my hair i realized that, yes, she was cutting ALOT shorter than I had said. So i said " ooooh, that's short" that's when she went on to say "yeah....I went shorter b.c i knew it would look better" So i continued to sit there, trying not too panic as she kept cutting...it was WAY too late to say stop. When she was done, I just tried really hard to like it, and I think at the salon I coninced myself that i liked it, so I think i convinced her of that as well. On my way home, at every red light i was checking out my new hair and the more i looked in the mirror...the more i hated it and by the time i got home, I was crying. I went straight to Peter to show him and he said he liked it, but i know he was being nice. The haircut itself is what i wanted but LONGER!!! So i guess i just have to grow it out....even though growing my hair out TAKES FOREVER!!!! And i was so sad that i had taken almost a whole year to grow my hair as long as I had to be cut away in one second. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I think i'm going into hibernation and not going out for a month...

Motivation

It's been almost a year since I had my baby Rocco and I am still struggling to lose my 'baby' weight. It sucks bug time. I tried to be strict and work out for over a month and i saw NO results. So I've been having a pitty party for myself for a long time now, and I think the party needs to be over. Every summer i go through a time of panic where i have a love/hate relationship with Summer. I love it b.c i can go to the beach, tan, and just enjoy the great outdoors. I hate it bc I hate trying to find clothes that look good on me and that I feel comfortable with. I feel so sorry for Peter who needs to deal with this...but i just can't figure out why I have no motivation. I am quite a confident person and when I look in the mirror, I do like what I see...I like the way I look. Also, Peter is such an amazing husband and he loves me no matter what and he always makes me feel that way too. I always watch The Biggest Loser and the contestants always have a moment where they realize why they are overweight. I need to somehow figure out mine...I also just love food. Especially the kind that's not good for me...Boo
This is actually quite a big step for me to write this out in public, but i'm in a good mood and i felt like writing about something...That's all!

Life so far

Well, we've been in Edmonton for almost a month now and it seems like we just got here! Time has flown by so fast, and it makes me excited that we are closer to being back in Winnipeg. We had gone down to Calgary this past long weekend, and we had an AWESOME time! I finally made it to the Calgary zoo and it was so fun! Rocco did not sleep the entire time! He didn't even sleep on the way down to Calgary, so I for sure thought he would be cranky and sleep while we were at the zoo. He ended up staying awake and was so good! Now we are packing up our stuff and moving on to our next home for a month. I hate packing and un-packing, but thank goodness it's not too much stuff....yet. Today Rocco is 11 months old and he is getting so big. He is SO loud ( I wonder who he got that from...:) and when he doesn't get what he wants, then he will definitely let you know he is not happy. Anyways Rocco is adjusting amazingly and Peter is loving being back at work and making money.
Sorry about the random post again....

New Ana

I think it's official....I would like to be back in Winnipeg now. I LOVE being back in Edmonton, but it is SO different being back and I think I thought it would be like it was when we lived here. I think the major reason is because now I am a mother. My priorities are different than what they used to be. There is definitely nothing wrong with that, it just comes down to stages in life, and really, besides my brother and sister in law and maybe 1 or 2 more couples...there is really no one else in Edmonton that is in the same stage in life as Peter and I. The more I think about it, the more i realize that i am now a different person as a mother. My perspective of life has changed drastically from how I was before. I used to want the big house, the new car, the best clothes, basically all things that are meaningless to me ( but sometimes I still would like to have...I am only human!). As much as I want my own house right now, I know that the desicion of living in my mother's basement is the best decision Peter and I have made. I know that many people see it as a bad thing, but I don't. Many people see it as a step back in life, but Peter and I see it as a step forward. We are not spoiled by living there, and we are not mooching off anyone by living there. We are doing what is best for our family, we provide Rocco with EVERYTHING that he needs ( and Abuelita provides things that he doesn't need! :) and for US ( as in Peter, Ana and Rocco) this works. Of course there are days where I just want my own space and I want to scream at my mother, but there are more pros than cons, and maybe i spoke to many of the cons, again I am only human.

Week 1

So we have been here for a week. I think the only down side so far has been the snow that fell the first few days. That really sucked big time! I wanted to go out for walks and do things outside, but i was kept inside! Now it's getting MUCH nicer outside and i'm ready to start my daily walks with Rocco! Being here in Edmonton has made me miss living here. Driving around made me miss having a life here and made me realize how much I loved being here. But then I think about all the awesome things that have been happening in Winnipeg and I find myself torn between 2 lives. I wish I can do both. One week here in Edmonton, one in Winnipeg, but i'll make sure we are in Winnipeg for church. I miss going to Oasis so much! We've been to 2 churches and I find myself thinking about what Oasis would be like on that Sunday....
Anyways, this is kind of a random post, but i have having a great time here, and i miss things in Winnipeg!

We have arrived!

We are now in Edmonton. Feels good. Feels strange. I think it feels a little strange because I had wrapped my mind around Edmonton being a place we now just visit and not live in anymore. I know we are only here for 2 months, but that is also a long time when you really think about it. Rocco seems to be adjusting well to all the change he has gone through these last few days so that's a positive....if only I were a little like him! Change is a little harder for me now and it's something i need to just pray more about. I'm looking forward to being here and doing all things I once did back when we lived here. More to come...