No nap Ana

As most of you know, I love love love to sleep! I look forward every night to go to bed and if i ever get a chance to nap, I am basically giddy with excitement. Peter laughs at me every time i get so excited to go to bed and before Enzo was born, he would essentially put Rocco down for a nap and then put me "down" It was hilarious. Now with two kids, I don't really like to take naps. For one, it takes me a while to get to sleep, and by the time that sleepy feeling comes around, one of the boys needs some sort of attention. So now when I put Rocco for his nap, it's my one on one time with Enzo. I love this time. It's quiet, calm and peaceful and i get to enjoy my baby boy just like i was able to with Rocco. Then when Enzo falls asleep, i get to catch up on all my recorded television and have some "me" time. Then when Rocco wakes up, we both have the energy to get through the rest of day!

Weight Watchers

I've been on weight watchers now for about 5 weeks. So far, i've lost some weight and i hope to loose a lot more in the next couple of months. But being on this program has made me crazy. Food is constantly on my mind. What to eat, how much, when is my next meal, how many points do i have left, i'm still hungry. Those are a few of many food related thoughts i have all day long. I also have "exercise thoughts" What can I do to burn calories? am i going to be able to go for a run tonight? Do i even feel like going out in this weather? Sometimes i just feel like screaming. I hate how my body gains weight so fast, I hate how i have stretch marks from my pregnancies, I hate that i don't fit into any cute clothes for the summer. It is quite overwhelming for my to deal with all these thoughts. I consider myself a confident person, and so all this makes me feel un-balanced. I know we all have our insecurities, but being on weight watchers, has made them worse. I feel like everyone is watching my every move and if this doesn't work, that i will be a complete failure. It's a lot of pressure and therefore this process is not fun at all. I do enjoy being able to exercise, and so far running has proved to be a lot more fun than it once was. I understand that I need a plan in order to reach my goals but all I can say is that it sucks, and i'm still hungry.

Good Boys!

As most of you know, Peter, myself and the rest of our little family have been living at "home" for almost 2 years now (as a side note, we are planning on moving out in the next few months!) and we have had the unbelievable privilege to have a "in house" babysitter...also known as Abuelita (grandma in Spanish) Usually anytime we want to go out with friends, or just go to an event "kid free" we are able to without a problem! When it was just Rocco, and as long as someone was home, we would leave him in bed and head out the door care free. There are even some mornings where my mom would just say "go back to bed...i'll take the boys" Those are the most beautiful words a mother can hear! Especially when you have a newborn and then your other child decides to wake up at 6am! Tonight though, we did not have that luxury. We had been invited to a BBQ at a friends place and originally my mother had offered to babysit but something had come up and she was not able to be home in time. So, we decided to take the entire family. Peter and I were a bit nervous not knowing how they would behave, and to make matters a little worse, Enzo had a bit of a crying fit before we left and didn't finish a feed. For sure I thought this was going to be an early night! We got there, we ate, we laughed and even talked! It was wonderful! Of course there were moments when Rocco had to be entertained, but he made a new friend and played "cars" with him! He even sat on my lap for a while and read some of his books! Enzo was held by some people and then hung out in his bouncy chair the rest of the night! I was pleasantly surprised how well behaved our boys were and realized that it is very much do-able to take them with us wherever we go! And it is good experience for us and them to learn how to be in different environments. We did leave at 9pm b.c Rocco was having a meltdown b.c he wanted to go to the playground across the street, but I would have too if i was the only 2 year old there stuck with adults! :) and it was WAY past his bedtime!

Commited to Parenting

Last night I went out for coffee with a good friend of mine and we came to the topic of kids. Naturally of course, b.c i now have two and she is expecting her first. We began to discuss the great things about kids and that when people have 2 kids it's for sure "commiting to parenting" It does not mean that if you only have one child that you are NOT committed, but with 2, it seems that the word "comitted" takes on a whole new meaning. With only Rocco in our lives it seemed that we lead our life almost the same way as we did before we had him with. We could still go out late (as long as we had somewhere to put his playpen so he could sleep or he stayed home with Abuelita), we would still, for the most part, be able to do what we wanted at home, and life was still pretty simple. Now that we have Enzo, it seems that adding one more person in our family has made life a little more crazy and also a little more difficult to take time for myself...and for my husband. I see now why there are so many articles out there talking about the importance of not revolving your life around your kids and really taking the time to be with your spouse and making an effort of spend some quality time together, without children. Also, being a little selfish too I think is more than ok. I realized that i need some "me" time in order for me to be a good parent to my boys. I need to go and get a pedicure, or go out for supper with a friend to feel refreshed and energized. I need to remember that I am not just a mother now, but still a wife and a friend!

On my own

Tomorrow my husband starts working full time. He will be working from 7-5. This means from now on I will be doing all the feedings at night. I know that most women do all feedings for their child and then go on to do a full day, so I do consider myself very blessed that Peter has helped out this much so far. I get a little bit of anxiety when I think about all the sleep I will be missing out on, and I know when i hear him snoring away, all i'll want to do is wake him up! Enzo is a pretty good sleeper, but my only problem is myself! I have been able to feed him, burp, change and put him back to sleep all in 45 minutes, and then when i go back to bed i have the hardest time falling back asleep! It is so frustrating! I just hope tonight also starts when i can fall back asleep! Say a little prayer for me!

Too funny not to tell.

This post is to all the mothers out there and for those who want a little laugh. To some of you reading this it may be a little gross so be for-warned.
Here is a little back story. We recently decided to switch fully to formula and i have not been pumping out my milk as much as i was before. So it's feeding time for Mr. Enzo and I make him his bottle and start to feed him. He leaves behind a little over and ounce and usually he wants it after a few minutes, so brilliant me thinks..."Hey! I should just breast feed him the rest of what he wants, just so i can get some breast milk out" (My boobs have been hurting a little) So I put him to the breast and he has no idea what to do. So i get him going and he starts to cough and then gag...no biggie...Then all of a sudden he PROJECTILE vomits all over my exposed chest not once, but 3 times!!! All over me, all over himself and all over my bed. I start laughing so hard b.c i knew it was probably a really dumb thing to do...Now i've messed up Enzo's routine, i have to do laundry and currently my boy is asleep and i'm waiting till he wants food again. Good thing Rocco was sleeping throughout this whole ordeal!

Slow Down!

Enzo is now almost 3 weeks old. Rocco is almost 22 months. I find myself wanting Rocco to stop growing up, and wanting Enzo to hurry and grow up. Having a newborn once again has been a little hard adjusting to, but I do have to say it is MUCH easier this time around than with Rocco. I am thankful for that. My little one eats every three hours and then sleeps, so there are moments of calm, but I long for a good nights rest :) It's amazing how lack of sleep truly affects your sanity! Right now my focus are my kids...i must care for them and push forward. I need to enjoy the newborn stage b.c it will quickly be over and I won't be able to put my little bundle to sleep on my chest and soon he will be a 30 pound toddler running around telling me what to do!