Motivation

It's been almost a year since I had my baby Rocco and I am still struggling to lose my 'baby' weight. It sucks bug time. I tried to be strict and work out for over a month and i saw NO results. So I've been having a pitty party for myself for a long time now, and I think the party needs to be over. Every summer i go through a time of panic where i have a love/hate relationship with Summer. I love it b.c i can go to the beach, tan, and just enjoy the great outdoors. I hate it bc I hate trying to find clothes that look good on me and that I feel comfortable with. I feel so sorry for Peter who needs to deal with this...but i just can't figure out why I have no motivation. I am quite a confident person and when I look in the mirror, I do like what I see...I like the way I look. Also, Peter is such an amazing husband and he loves me no matter what and he always makes me feel that way too. I always watch The Biggest Loser and the contestants always have a moment where they realize why they are overweight. I need to somehow figure out mine...I also just love food. Especially the kind that's not good for me...Boo
This is actually quite a big step for me to write this out in public, but i'm in a good mood and i felt like writing about something...That's all!